Cultivate Trust in the Bigger Process

"Try not to resist the changes that come your way. Instead let life live through you. And do not worry that your life is turning upside down. How do you know that the side you are used to is better than the one to come?" - Rumi

With many years of childhood trauma and adulthood struggling, I used to ask a lot "why me?!". I subconsciously saw life was working against me and setting all the obstacles for me to stumble. I lived in constant fear of what's coming next. Behind all those there was a limiting belief that I was not loved. Then buddhism and my first life coach stepped in my life, shedding light on my awakening from constant suffering. For the first time, I started to allow and lean in what is happening. A seed of trust was planted. 

Then afterwards came many years of healing journey, on which trust and doubt fluctuated from time to time. When things went well, I trusted more; when things got bumpy, I feared more. The biggest difference of me at this stage was that I started to think "why NOT me?!". Especially when I looked back my previous most difficult periods, I realized that difficulties would always pass and things would move on no matter how I felt about it. One thing for sure is every time after I went through tough time and situations, I felt stronger. "What doesn't kill makes me stronger." Then I realized "oh! that's the lesson life is trying to teach me. Life is building me up rather than tearing me down." 

Where I am now is I've trusted more and more everyday. I see life is working FOR me and I start to see opportunities of growth in daily life. I feel more grounded, more connected with universe, and more loved. All the things are extension of Love. I am extension of love. All the relationships around me are expressions of such unconditional love or the needs of unconditional love. I'll keep trusting......

Red Akers

Dec 22, 2021